I have had fairly insane anxiety my entire life. Only over the last few days have I actually admitted that to anyone beside a couple of medical practitioners. I am uncomfortable pretty much everywhere and all interactions are affected by my anxiety. No-one knew I had anxiety as it's always been a fear that someone would know that I have anxiety and that would change the way that they perceive me. For many, many years I have been going to make public that I have battled anxiety along with depression, sinusitis, tinnitus, arthritis and who knows what else. I have always kept that internalised. Speaking in public has always cost me hugely mentally but when it comes to Christmas lights I have done it where I could. Being the focus of attention has always freaked me out. At the recent Melbourne mini (which I love being at and freak out as there's other people there) I was selling lots of stuff. Well actually lots of stuff was being sold but mainly not by me. I was uncomfortable being on the other side of the table with people looking at me. I was only too happy to talk to people and a couple of the absolute legends at the mini were working as unofficial salesmen for me.
My focus on user manuals being supplied and being correct stems from my anxiety. My own user manuals are nowhere near to the standard that I would like as I am nowhere near as proficient with Word and any graphics programs necessary to create good diagrams. Knowing the information and being able to put it down electronically are 2 totally separate things sadly.
My focus on user manuals being supplied and being correct stems from my anxiety. My own user manuals are nowhere near to the standard that I would like as I am nowhere near as proficient with Word and any graphics programs necessary to create good diagrams. Knowing the information and being able to put it down electronically are 2 totally separate things sadly.
